Monday, December 22, 2008

oh my

its been a long time.

i don't really know where i've been. all over, back and forth...standing still staring into space. catching needed rest and pleasure in santa fe.

its cold. my house is cold. drafty. i wake up at 4 am-ish, its too cold to sleep and my head is like an ice block.i sleep w/ 2 dogs and a cat.

i'm tired much of the time. dizzy. coughing. aching. its really fun. just keeping the wood stove going and feeding all the animals is about all can i get accomplished. but what do expect with a thrift store immune system.

in my head i'm planning where to go and hoping. hoping for more. and singing. i sing a lot. the singing is the important part, the singing is about the change thats coming.

i try and smile at people and be as friendly as i can muster. this seems to help.


Loretta said...

I hope you get to feeling better soon. I remember those wood stoves as a child, freeze on one side cook on the other. My old cat sleeps at my feet,he's warm and company. Take care.


erin ambrose said...

why thank you loretta. i'm hoping i'll feel better once i'm living in town, in a warm place and i can rest up! thats the plan anyway.
and yeah, woodstoves are very all or nothing. whenever i visit my city friends its so weird to me that their places are just constantly heated...even through the night. and they don't have to do anything about it....odd.

Jbeeky said...

Feel Better Erin, I am thinking of you this Christmas Eve and of the many, many times in the past couple of years I have felt hopeless, hurt and thought of you and what you would say to me. Usually it starts with "Christ, is that all yer whinin about?" I love you girl!

Just 4 Ewe said...

Merry Christmas Erin, I hope you are feeling better, the cold just gets into your bones!!! I wish you a prosperous New Year!!!

sighing said...

"Thrift store immune system."
So that's what it's called.
I'm wondering if I can take mine to a consignment store and trade it in for an upgrade.
Btw...belated Merry Xmas.