Nesting Doll

Some days I’m still her

she is inside me like a nesting doll

some days I split open

and there she is

still that crass and skinny cast off

a pre teen beauty queen

learning to work

in a halter top mini- skirt

and leg warmers

swaying and twirling her way around the skate rink

to Journey

Rick James

Joan Jett
lovin rock n roll in her glitter stained roller skates

hair feathered roach clips

and teased lips

red and her high heels waiting in the rental locker
lights swirling

she’s thinking

 I’ve got this

 I'm ok, ya know?
 just ok.

 the lights will save me
 the movement will save me
 I'm worth saving

 a bigger me will grow

 up and around this mess like armour

and having stayed alive til puberty

having carried it all

like a bag of knives

this girl will get to rest

she’ll get to nest.